I wrote a blog about my last straw moment, which ultimately made me return to Weight Watchers in September of 2006 and start this blog. What triggered that trip was a combination of things:
- I was back over 200 pounds again - for the 3rd time in my life; something I swore would never happen again.
- I had recently turned 35 and was having an early mid life crisis. I wanted to enjoy whatever youth I had left.
- I was once again at the point where I was so unhappy that I was ready to try again.
The more I thought about it, I realized I had wasted way too much time being fat, unhappy and uncomfortable and for what? Really? So I could eat whatever I felt like? When I thought that far into it, I realized how ridiculous it was. Just because pizza/candy/whatever tastes good, I am willing to suffer in the myriad negative ways my gluttonous eating was affecting me?
When I thought about it that way, it was so obvious that the food was holding me back from my life - my one life! - time I could never get back. I was not going to let food do that to me any longer. I was not going to allow it to have that much power over me ever again. I wasted years - decades - being unhappy, self conscious, uncomfortable and sad. And I didn't want to waste any more time like that.
As for the second half of her question - what made me know I was going to stick with it this time - I'll be honest, I didn't feel that way when I joined. My leader, Carolyn, used to remind us that the reason you JOIN WW is usually different than the reason you STAY with WW. And this is so true. What got me there is not what kept me there - My immediate desire was simply to lose some weight and feel less gross. But over months, and now years, my attitude and goals have changed - I've evolved while on program:
- I've started exercising for the first time in my life.
- I've eliminated foods I thought I 'couldn't live without'.
- I've changed how I think about food and life.
- I started to believe in myself.
- I finally accepted that I cannot and should not be a perfectionist to be successful.
Thank you, Jen, for writing. I hope that answers your question and that you, and anyone else reading, can take something away from my response and perhaps think of some things in a new way; a way that might inspire you to get started or get re-focused. The changes might be slow and even a little difficult at times, but I assure you they are worth it.
Now get out there and reclaim your life while you still have time!